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i wish i can take u somewhere far,but i don't drive a car.there are many things we can do,but i don't know where to start.i can buy you the moon or the stars,but i know i'm just dumb.i want to light up some candles and lay u down on the open field so that we can view the silent sky.i can say nothing more.i have not met you yet.please come hear me,which i think you are too far.you will find me,only if you can see the silence inside..

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

SKY's recording was great..ha ha!
thank u God..without his presence..
i really doubt this rec. gona work..he he!
amen!
we only recorded drums..today..
well..it's really wicked man!!!
all in the hands of God..


dear GOD..
i realized dat i've been slacking..
am i seeking u or just feeling jaded?
man! am i so numb to how i feel?
i ask for patience..
i ask to be more prayerful..
i came so far..
i'm not gona give up..
fighting the daily fight..
thank u GOD..may i rest in u..
as i surrender to sleep..
amen!

Monday, March 29, 2004

late for church..tired..
worked at the Shop..ha ha! fun..
jammin was great..
i can't believe but Sky is gona record like in another16 hrs time..ha ha!


praise u God..
for the food..
the band..
my talents..
the great friendships..
thank u sooo much!

Friday, March 26, 2004

both rehearsal were awesome..tired..sticky..

thank u God..
so happy to know..
that i can serve U with these talents..
praise u..
glory belongs to U..
i can never thank u enough..


brownies seduction>

i wait..
day by day..
i feel like tasting u..
so tempted to hear u..
still i dare not..
i see u from far..
in my mind, u walk..
i can only stare..
i duno why..
i feel your scent..
u make me want..
i can only pray..
my eyes would luv
a second glimpse..
a second of u..
i stay..i wait..
only if u stay..
please..





Wednesday, March 24, 2004

went for drama cell today..
wah! i'm really bad with scripts..
ha ha!..something i'm bad at..
memorising..

thank u God..
the talents i hav belongs to u..
it's not mine but yours..
help me not to complain..
but to learn & appreciate what u hav given me..


lost in words..
speechless..me
incomplete sentence..
words i can't make out..
sunk deeper..pain..
i can't dig out..
silence..
am i hurt?
am i awake to dream..
or am i hiding..
i'll face u..
with faith i hold close..




Tuesday, March 23, 2004

jammin was awesome..ha ha!
recording soon..yeah!!!

thank u God..for food..for the everything..
can never thank u enough!..
most of all..thank u for hearing me..


brownie seduction >

I would luv to hear u.
taste the scars.
feel the pain of a lovely princess.
Why don't you sleep early?
You must rest the tired mind.
Hope you are not tiring yourself out.
I would luv to hear u.
But at nights u seems busy.
I’ll be all right. Waiting.
Waiting to see you.
Waiting to dine with you.
Just you & hearing you alone
Still. I dare not.
Please. I ask that you will hear me.

Monday, March 22, 2004

strange..
in the mood..same feeling
oppressed..
heavy..unspoken..speechless
if i let it out..
i'll just break down..
i dun wana feed on this..
dun wana feed on u..

thank U God..for the food..for the friends..for the everything..my talents..my gift..my all..belongs to.. ..U

i surrender..my sweet surrender..

Saturday, March 20, 2004

tired..rehearsal went well..todayi felt out of place..a bit drained..had a great time with Andrew..ha ha! he's acting as the police man again..he he!

thank u God..

teach me to follow your ways more than mine..
help me to overcome my feelings..
even thou it's so real..
help me to know u r even more real!!!
help me to trust u..help me!!!
this's what i pray!!!
amen..



u seems so far away..
where are u..
thot i found u..
like honey..like a dream..
so sweet..
so impossible..
but i dare to dream..
at least i get to see u..
thou u r so far away..
just this bit..
just a taste..
what a waste?
what a season..
love is painful..
and i can only stand there wait..
what about me..???

Sy..




Friday, March 19, 2004

i am so bad at remembering my lines..wah! 1 church play coming..errr! man! sometimes i think i can't act..but then again..i must praise God..it's His gift not mine..ha ha! i am thankful..thank u God for today..it's beautiful..

yes! woke up early today..darn tired..slept for 2 hrs..errrrr!

Thursday, March 18, 2004

trust..believe..hav faith..& faith is something u can't see but believe..so i believe..i choose to believe..

thank u God..for your everything..

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

blank!!! man! my 2nd day..emotionless..nothing in my head..
xbox is great,graphics r awesome..he he! thanx Mr pirate who lives in Serangoon..he he!
it's great..that i spoken to my sensei on msn..he he! but she bz today..well..i'm happy..

thank u God..for everything..for today..

Monday, March 15, 2004

tired..strange..not smiling..sweet..

thank u God..i'll be so lost if i've not met u..

my sensei teach me new phrase.. watasi wa chocolate ga suki= i like chocolate..

oyasumi..sensei..

Sunday, March 14, 2004

Rehearsal was fun..yes! tired..
tend the wmum Shop..aircon + x men..to enjoy..ha ha!

feeling insecure..but i'm good now..i guess i just need to hear some stuff..so comforting words..it's just my low esteem me..thot this part of me died..sadly,i need to deal with my emotions..need to be more careful..still dun understand wats going on..but i'm just gona pray..nothing seems to make sense..

thank u God..

Saturday, March 13, 2004

it hurts..i'm hurt..still there..
i won't deny..maybe i'll be worse if i don't seek God..
still bothers me..i wana walk out of her..i wana chill..
i wana hav the strength to walk & not turn back..
sore..just realized it's just me..i can't seems to forget ..
i don't understand..why did the pain came back to visit me..
maybe i'm not done..how can i leave my heart's cry..
all those unspoken emotions..unspoken words..



God! with all these..i give u..
i can't carry any longer..
i don't wana deny..i wana believe..
i believe..


Friday, March 12, 2004

today..drama cell was ok..i really duno whether am i good at acting..
it's a worship to GOd..His gift not mine..
so i praise u GOd..His glory not mine..
i'm His kid..yah! the boy that farts & burps anywhere anytime..ha ha!

putting God 1st in everything i do..wah! really put me to test..
what a week of surrendering & seeking HIm 1st..not even the bother about the outcome..
i want to believe..& not think about anything..
yeah..hardcore man!
i choose to believe..i choose to pray..
luv u God..

thank u so much for the weather..the food..the people..the clothes i wear..the shoes i hav..yah! my guitars..so much more..so much dat i can only say thank u..i want to be like U..i want to go places..i want to do great things..i want to sweep the floor for u God..i want..i want to luv..i want to believe..HELP ME TO..



am i important to u? am i wasting ya time? am i.. am i..
dear GOD..
i surrender..these questions hav no answers..
i believe in u..the pain will go..
i dun care..
i know i need to believe..i want to..i choose to..

i feel little..i know i need to trust & believe..u..Jesus..yes..u GOD..

Sy..358am

Thursday, March 11, 2004

words from GOD>
Trust in ME..just trust in ME..wait..& u shall see..be normal..your luv will return..be what u use to be


praises to u>
man! thank u Lord..surrender a word u want me to learn..
thank u for teaching me..
help me to die to myself more..
only in u..
i'll find freedom & healing..

i am healed.. a product of prayer..thank u God..
i was broken..but i'm patched up..
i was angry..but i'm calm now..
i was lost..but i know where i am now..

thank u people..for the PRAYERS & concerns..i am good to go..he he!


i must learn to trust..to surrender..to be prayerful..to seek..to fight..to preserver..wah! thank u GOd..

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

03:11:09 AM
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nothing for me..
Maybe it's just me that needs to change..
To learn..
unlearn..
relearn..
pick up the pieces of me..
glue it back together..
it's not the same..
it'll never be the same..
Maybe it's just me that needs to change..

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a man lost a fight..went back to his cave & train for 22 days & when he's done..he cave out of his cave..guess wat..his opponent took out a gun & shot him..there goes his 22 days of training..



dear God..

let ya will be done..i come b4 u as a nobody..i lose..i surrender once again,even my flesh is against me..i am sorry! i want to luv u,God..i want to respect u..so here i am at my weakest..i'll follow u..& i thank u for the moments i had with her..she hav grown so much..i'm so proud of her..thank u God..

my prayers to u..my GOD..

SY..01:46:57 AM

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

dear GOd..hav mercy on me..a person who's so selfish,so self-centered..let your will be done..i've lost! i am a nobody b4 u..who am i to bargain? i am sorry GOd..pls help me to walk the path u want me to..even it's against my flesh..i am so ashamed of myself..let your will be done..i've lost!..God u r my everything..i'm so sorry..i'm so sorry..wat was i thinking? wats wrong with me?

i'm feeling the sore..i'm lost now..but i thank u God..i know u r in control..looks like i fail u GOd..sorry..11:46:47 PM
lousy..

but God..is good..He is awesome..praise u God..i know u r with me..thank u for being who u r..God..thank u for the rainy weather..thank u..no words can describe how i feel..no words..jammin was awesome..a new song was born..i choose joy..i choose u..Jesus..

i dunno anything anymore.. wat's real? wat?..why? i believe in it..i dun wana hide..02:00:29 AM




Monday, March 08, 2004

Woke up late for church..yes! another sleepless night again..wat's wrong? wat's wrong?..feel very tired..yeah! very tired..a stiff neck..a strain back..yeah! lastnite gig was killa..ha! the short film thingy was great..yeah! lots of waiting to do..wat's new..

praise u God..thank u for the chance to live..to see..to understand..

will i sleep tonite? i feel lousy..haven't felt this way for a while..but i know..i'll be ok..


the wait is over..u r back..u must be tired..01:13:44 AM

Sunday, March 07, 2004

3 letter session gig is awesome man!..the moshpit is destruction man!!! so happy to receive such good response out of these dudes..had great moments with the rockstar boys..he he! all the bands played well..so happy for these dudes..yeah!

praise u GOD..the SKY's set is really from U..there were heaps & heaps of boys moshing& slamming..thanx u GOD so so much..man! i feel HIS presence..what a worship man! i feels like..so high!!! i played my heart out..swinging & moving..wah! i am so in awe..thanx again..GOD..thank u for these bros in this band!!! yeah! to the crowd too:)


no.22day- hours b4 we meet..

no words can paint how i feel..
my heart beat faster..
when i think about u..
hours now..not days..
i miss u..
i miss u..
til then..
we'll see face to face..
journey mercy..
goodnite..sweet..


Saturday, March 06, 2004

Just finish my 5km jog..yes! done my shower stuff..he he!..well,not tired thou!..hmm..about 12 hrs time..the gig is gona happen..not really in the mood man! but i am excited boy!!! strange..

hung out with Shawn & Shawna this morning..Shawn's b'day..ate bak gua..he he! drunk lotsa coke..had pizza too..he he!BAD!!!

the moon is bright & beautiful today..what a clear sky man! WAH KOOL!!!

can't seems to smile today..WHY?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?


no.21 day-1day left..


i hope the moon is looking at u today..
it's so bright..
so round..
somethings just don't change..
journey mercy darling..
may HIS angels fly with u..
in the fluffy clouds..
may u find rest..
like pillows..
like a bed..
may u rest in HIM..
goodnite..
i miss u dearly....


i fear that things might change..maybe me..maybe u..maybe surroundings..my prayer is to walk boldly with U..GOD..i can't seems to walk..i don't wana fear..i wana take the next step..please..

as i sleep..let me see U..hug me....AMEN..




Friday, March 05, 2004

drama class was great..had a funny time..yes! rehearsing for a short play that's gona happen in church soon..infact end of this month..he he!

thank u God so much for these months + everything under the sun..luv u!!! now i can only look back in awe..after what God has done..i am a product of His Grace & mercy..here i am..a nobody..no talent..i just wana be a servant..i surrender..well..still trying..still trying..

only in HIM i am a rockstar..i am His child..i am ME..

talked to YUMi again on msn..saw her on her webcam thou..funny..had a great time..learnt a few jap phrases hmm..sleep= ne mu ru....kowai =fearful....oyasumi=goodnite..there u go.. my sensei YUMI..



no.20 day-2days left..

words r just words..
it hurts at times..
why?
when u mean it..
& when u say it..
now..
i miss u..i miss u..
hope it is the same for u..
i pray..
praying that u stay true..
hopefully this is..
stay..

kowai


Thursday, March 04, 2004

Something is bugging me..nah! dunno watsup in my head..i can only ask GOd for HELP!!! nothing i can do...just need to continue fighting & not give up..i realize dat i actually feel/know where i am going..u know life..future..yes! those stuff..but so far it's great lah!!! nothing i know dat is bad..well,God knows! i wait..

thank u GOD..cell was great! a speaker came from Aust..amazing man! so encouraging..i know u r here..thanx again..

talk to YUMi on msn..it was fun..prayed for her..he he! amazing man! well,end up seeing her on her webcam..she just wana say goodnite..dats sweet..he he! oh! her cat is funny..


no.19 day-3days left..

hav not been sleeping well..
i wonder..r u the cause..
i think i am worried..
want to know how u r doing..
yes! i miss u..it hurts like an open wound..
yes! u r the cause dat kept me awake..
but i realize, i've fallen for u so deeply..
subtle,unknowingly..

dear..i didn't forget ya b'day..waiting to celebrate with u..goodnite..i'll try sleeping early ok?

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

what can a bummer write each day? nothing to complain..can't sleep..things in my HEAD..what? suppose to jam with VR..well,some last minute thingy..end up..eating & nonsense..he he he!

he he..just installed this new downloading thingy..hope it's fast..


no.18 days-4 days to left..

i'm glad u r coming back soon..
i hope things don't change..
hope u r the same..
my prayers for u..
journey mercy..
may HIS angels protect u..
the faithful walk..
the on going fight..
goodnite..

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Just came back from jammin..yes SKY's nite..it was a great jam..everyone was focus..alert, but tired!!! he he!

not really smiling today..ain happy..no idea why? just wana chill..well,hav been bumming thou..maybe it's my unproductiveness..ha!!! watever!

thank u GOd for today & all the gigs i've been blessed with..yes! i'm bless with friends too..


no.17 day-5 days left..

since u left..
i find it harder to sleep..
why?
kept thinkin abt u..
did u sleep well?
miss the many things u said..
nites without hearing u..
but only silence i hear..
telling myself..
u'll be back..
i'm still waiting..
oh! time pls fly..
goodnite..

Monday, March 01, 2004

Sermon was awesome..abt John the baptist..how unique & bold he was..God made him..well,there's more to it thou..a man who is fearlessly righteous..amen brother..

had a great time with uncle G & boy Desmond..went down for some short film thingy..

not at home today..movie nite..all the way..keep it up..



no.16 day-6 days b4 i see ya face..

one message to warm my heart..
just to know u r doing good..
stilling missing u..sweet..
waiting for ya arrival..

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