i wish i can take u somewhere far,but i don't drive a car.there are many things we can do,but i don't know where to start.i can buy you the moon or the stars,but i know i'm just dumb.i want to light up some candles and lay u down on the open field so that we can view the silent sky.i can say nothing more.i have not met you yet.please come hear me,which i think you are too far.you will find me,only if you can see the silence inside..

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

My heart sank
drown at your sight
silently i cried
an empty smile
i hate to lie
i dried my heart out
thinking this pain will die

I am so wrong

i am so weak but YOU are strong
carry me on your wings as we walk along
thank you

Friday, February 11, 2005

I let u die in me
my daily prayer
the daily hurts
in silence in silence..

I meant nothing to u
juz a self pitied fool
whom u can't trust
whom dun seems to understand
still blinded by u
still think dat u care..

so weak in ya presence
so weak in ya expands
i'll throw everything away
juz to climb over the fence
to hear u to be with u
even everything dun make sense..

Maybe i should kill all the thoughts about u
they dun exist
it's a lie i can't resist
it's a lie cause u exist
i dun deny u
i still care..

It's dying it's dying
soon u'll be flying
we won't be as close
now hear me crying
how useless of me
juz to be in tears
in fear of losing u
nothing nothing
nothing to begin with..

I'm buried in prayers..
in confessions..
i was never there..
u fell for Attention..
u luv Attention
not me..
Never me..

here i am alone
holding hands with God
HE called me into his embrace
in His embrace i'm saved..

everynite i think of u..
soon u'll die in me..
cuz i let u..
memories of u..
thank u


Sunday, January 16, 2005

the words i left u
it left me cold
i said wat i said
the hurts unfold
burns me
i let my tears roll
everything went wrong
from the moment i speak
it breaks me
& i know..
how much u meant to me
u meant too much
too much dat i would hurt myself
sadly i left u
with empty words
nothing i said means anything to u
it's my confession
hear the voice of my heart
i'll stop
we got nothing to say
i'm so sorry
i am
u dun need
u never did
u dun know me
u never knew
i am juz so blind

take care now
i'll watch u from afar
the pain will consume me
i'll have to let u go
free from me
i'm ashamed
of me..
to shield u
to stay away from me


Monday, January 10, 2005

Do u remember the purple rotting flower?

i can't forget
help me to
but is it u to
bring me thru
now dat i think of u
it brings a tear or two..
u said its the past
u left me blind
a broken vase
how can it be fine..

i close my fists
i close it tight
tighter than u ever touch
don't get too close
i dun wana be hold
i let u go

i run i run
in my saviour

Friday, January 07, 2005

Fly away..
now i'll see u this way
fly away
make me the breeze
& now i'll leave like a mist..

What do u hav for me?
Juz unwanted memories
& a big mistake

What i got for u..
it's still here..
it still bleed..
with no regrets..

But i can't keep u
i can't bury u
thou i want u

to want u..
is to let go..
it's better..
Here we'll be free

Liked a used chopping board
the many cuts
the bleeding surface
u can't wash them away..
u can't

it's not time..
but God to heal..
i leave my goodbyes
i leave my embrace
i leave my tears
i leave my words..
at the feet of ya heart
coz u wouldn't hear..
u wouldn't say..

maybe i'm as blind as u..
but u dun even know dat ur blind
save the apologies..
save yourself..

Fly away..Fly away..

Monday, January 03, 2005

It bleeds
It hurts
You are still here
Still inside


to sleep
in my blanket of memories


Sweetly i surrender
As a precious gift to my saviour
I kissed you goodbye
Painfully like a broken vase
Scattered in pieces
I leave you a hug
With a prayer
I close my bleeding eyes
It's all inside
I can't find
Kneel b4 my saviour
open arms open wide
I'll show you
i cry i cry

Sweetly surrender sweetly saved


Monday, December 27, 2004

I have given u
Take all u want
If u care
If i meant something to u
But nothing
I won't let u cut me
No more..
This is war
& i come back ten folds
This is war
I'll kill my memories
Memories of u

How could u hurt me?
What have i done?
Speechless me
But i got what u want

This is what u want
This is what u want
This is what u want
This is what u want

Here i leave

Died in ya hands..


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